confessions of a hooker that doesn’t put out

** DISCLAIMER: I am non-autonomously involved in every instance of solicitation, and am ultimately totally blameless **

• my  value in sum: $900p/h + $100 + $150 + $150 + $150 + $150 + $150 + $150 + $150 + $150 … ? = $2,200 (aprox) not counting the jewelry, the cigarettes, and the dinners
• the hook game starts early ideally before 7 yearsold, however the pay isn’t great just those Wanka hard candies shaped like fruit paid one at a time  
• you’ll love her she comes pre-groomed, adorable!
• I make a whorish first impression
• or at least a corrupted one
• the thing about being in this line of work (of not putting out) is that it’s a new, unexplored field with plenty of opportunities 
• applicants are motivated, strategic, feminine, of stereotypical pasts,disturbing, lovely, thrilling, sincere, needy, and suicidal 
• once I slept with a man I thought he was imaginary. he told me his fetish was sleeping with  prostitutes - they only wanted him for his money, in retrospect I should’ve kept the watch he fastened tight to my wrist before the night went on - but that’d break my pattern 
• I’d make a fabulous dominatrix despite my waifishness
• this isn’t about that
• how’d you like to make $100 asks the man walking crooked on a shoe and a barefoot, he says he wants very badly to run me a bath with fine soaps and epsom salts. and lick my pussy and thighs right there in the tub-I let him keep talking- can I tell u you something? - ___ - crack makes me re a l ly  horny. Sometimes.  I Can’t Control Myself. 
• all in the search of 
• I’m not prettier than the other girls just more interesting 
• Im so goddamn interesting 
• I’m so goddam embarrassing
• I’m so powerful
• I’m so good at hurting myself it’s actually creative
• give me credit
• I negotiated with Larry the regular for $900 an hour after he’d had his 3 mai thais, his wife was in the next room while we were at the bar, he asked why my price was so high, I told him I could show him things he’d never experienced before- it was probably true, I gave him my phone number and then blocked him an hour later 
• one day I’ll tell you things that’ll make your toes curl
• the old artist likes the feeling that he’s corrupting me, and I’m a traumaphile, we’ve been living in nauseous bliss for months now 
• tell your friends everything but leave out the details 
• turn the fan on 
• use your fear to your advantage soft breakable addictive saintly virginal fallen angel, they love it
• you’re so beautiful when you can’t move, stuck still
• if you play your cards right ( I do) it’s all cash and no mess
• the desperate ones (all of them) let you get away with anything and also with doing nothing 
• getting a call now, we’ll finish this later

All lovely intentions,

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app idea

 App Idea

I wish there was

    An

App, that would scan

  My whole naked

    Body and sent it

 Out there to all the

Girls and it

      Would locate

     The ones that

Want to come over right

      Now

  Drink

  Fuck

Then leave before

      My roommate

         Gets back

From karate.

magician

 Magician

To be a magician would

Be great

I’d like to be a real one.

I would never have to worry

  About anything,

Because any time I needed to impress someone

I would just use my powers and

They would be amazed.

No matter what,

  My spells would always be there

For me.

But,

   If I was cursed and I watched my powers

Slowly

    Fade

Out

 That would be the worst way 

To die.

If I couldn’t just pull something out

  Of the back of my pocket anymore to

   Impress someone.

And the more I search for the rabbit

In my hat, 

The further it falls

And If I look down the 

Hole,

I just see darkness,

I scream

Into my hat., but

No one can

Hear me inside of my

           Uniform.

So,

I adopt the cloth of a wizard,

A close cousin of mine,

  But it doesn’t fit right,

I tug at the sleeves and 

  Sag the pants. 

Still,

Nothing comes.

So I throw it all away,

  And

 I accept the life of a mortal.

But, I hold onto the 

Tiniest spark at all times as

A reminder of what I 

Thought I could

Be. 

But it just makes everything

Worse.

I remember when it was

  So easy,

And 

I would just do tricks for them and

They’d do it right back at

 Me.

And maybe I’ll go digging for that old hat

Of mine. 

   It was never supposed to be easy.

But,

IF YOU TRY TO HARD,

The magic has a way,

  OF , 

        Hiding. So

You just sit there

And wait

For 

It. 

You try 

So 

Hard,

   Not to care,

And you are 

Lost. 

So you give up again

 And decide to be a cowboy.

Being a cowboy ain’t so 

Bad, 

It’s not about tricks,

  It’s about, 

 Being bold.

And that’s always come easy

For you.

And maybe one day you’ll combine them.

No one will know why

  You always win

But you got a magic gun 

Kid,

  Never forget it,

And you may not always 

 See it., but,

  Why do you need to keep

Seeing it

 When it’s revealed itself

Time and again. 

And when will you start

To Believe.

hair

 Hair

You asked

    Me if I thought

  It looked gay

And so

    I told you i didn’t 

    Think it was gay.,

And i wondered if

    You asked cuz you 

   Hated yourself or

Something,

   But

You said you

    Asked cuz

    Some

    Guy, in a 

     Session

Said you had 

The 

    Most lesbian haircut he had

  Ever seen

       And you did’

       nt like that and i do

       nt think i would either

And you said 

    He t3xted you to

      EXPLAIN that it wasnt bad 

        That It looked

     Gay,

  And you told me about

     How

   You dressed like a boy now,

     And i liked that about

     You but

           I wonder

           ed what you dressed like before,.

And the n i started to 

   Imagine you

   With a mohawk and 

You were real cool like

     And it 

     Reminded me

Of this character

From LEGO ROCK BAND and 

Then i started to feel

    Sad about Sam’s story how

    He got rock band for 

  Christmas, but they couldn’t afford the

        Guitars,

       And they tried 

    So

         HArd to play with

        A controller

             But you couldn’t,.

             You just

             Couldn’t,/

     So they took it back 

To the store and his 

    Christmas present went back

Through the door

 And now that I think of it

   he's got a real good head of hair

         I like his

         I don't

        Like mine much

    But there’s a lot

         I like about

         Him that I don’t 

Like about me and

      There's a lot of stuff I think that falls

Out of my brain through 

    My hair and 

   I wondered if you could just

See

 it

     And maybe

That's  why i seemed so unfriendly 

    But i liked it most 

When 

It looked

       Real bad

       And I felt

   Real 

   Bad,.

Because maybe i could be

           A cool guy in a corner 

     And 

           someone would

           Notice me     .and you did.

And i looked at that hair 

      Of yours ,before you ever asked if I thought

  It was 

  Gay

           And all I thought was 

   That it looked

Real

Cool.

top 10 ways to get off in 2024

• Dressing up like a boy and touching yourself in the mirror
• Dressing up like you did in 2019 and touching yourself in the mirror
• Dressing up like a guy dressing up like Travis Bickle and touching yourself in the mirror
• Touching yourself to pictures of pretty boys in your copy of Scene Inbetween you got for Christmas in 2016 and crying
• Explaining over the phone how one might think that T-Rex officially went electric with the release of “Ride A White Swan,” who’s label had dropped the “-yrannosaurus” and the addition of Mickey Finn but actually if you look back to the year before there was the release of King of the Rumbling Spires / Do You Remember which showed Bolan and Took and Visconti pretty much inventing glam rock in July 1969(!), the T-Rex of Electric Warrior pretty much fully formed, but also this distinction not being as meaningful as people make it out to be, more just a difference of presentation, to Bolan’s cosmic pop wisdom, these are all the same thing, these are all the same song while she imagines you rubbing the tip of her penis with your thumb
• Pretending to be a dog
• Getting off to concepts more than anything
• She lets you talk about cycles of aesthetic reappraisals and how some come on time and some are delayed as you are dressed up like a boy and touching yourself in the mirror
• Explaining maybe too much about your personal life to strangers because you think the context will deepen their enjoyment of your last record while you are dressed up like a boy and touching yourself in the mirror
• Piss

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